I've come to realize the hardest part of sobriety. It's not the admitting addiction is a problem, it's not the asking for help, it's not even making changes and doing the work to get/stay sober. It's the thing no one talks about. The brain fog clears and you start to remember... that "person" you turned into, although I would hardly call that version of myself a person. You remember the things you've said and done. You remember how much pain you caused. And going through THAT has been the hardest thing I've ever done in my life... and I have to do it sober.